The Journey

This week, I have had the opportunity to work closely with our Community Life Coordinator, Amy. A forgotten appointment led to the provision from God for both of us. But before I go into that, I need to share what God has been showing me the past few weeks. I've really been searching for a place to "plug in"--somewhere where I could use the gifts, talents, and passions God has given me to advance His kingdom. I landed at Trinity, and through His hand plugged in almost right away. I have been doing a lot of thinking about past and present situations, lots of praying about what He wants for me, where He wants me to go. He has shown me, within the last month, that words and actions against me ten years ago have dictated what I've done. I didn't enter the "ministry" due to some bad experiences. I realize that some of the life-shaping things I've done since then have been of my own hand, but also see that many things were of His doing. For example, had I found a church to work in immediately following college, I would not have landed in a Spirit-filled church where I found a new family. I would not have met wonderful people to do life with. Anyway, as I look back on the last ten years, I realized that I could respond to God's revelation in two ways: I could wallow in self-pity and mourn ten years I can't replace, OR I could look back, see the "standing stones" in my life during that time, and rejoice that God has shown me these things. I can, and have, choose (chosen) to trust that He will replace those years, heal the wounds, and guide me where He wants me.
So, in that, I have been praying for more opportunities to experience what He wants for me. I have been praying for chances to exercise those gifts, etc. And, He has been faithful to answer. While not many people would consider re-formatting a training guide or planning a big event "fun," I have thoroughly enjoyed these opportunities (yes, even my eyes are crossed and my hands cramping from cutting and pasting for hours on end). And, He has renewed my interest and desire to work in the church. I'm not saying this is a certainty, and I don't think it will happen for several months, but at least I know that my education and giftings are welcome, even valued.
To those who feel like they aren't appreciated, like their personal ministries (whatever they look like) aren't valued--don't swallow the lie! You are impacting lives in ways you may never know. You may never get called up on stage, may never receive an earthly reward for your work, but God sees. Focus on Him, and His love and grace and blessing will follow.