Gentle Reminders

I had a few interesting things happen today.  Definitely not huge or profound in any way, but things that showed me, once again, the sovereignty of our mighty, loving God.
I've been feeling unworthy of the amazing grace that God pours out on us--not in humble realization of being a sinner in need of a Savior, but more of questioning whether I'm "cut out" to be a Christian.  One reason is constant struggle with sin and knowing that I am walking in disobedience, yet unable to shake the sinful habits.  Another reason is that I'm too analytical, especially given long days of nothing to do.  My mind takes off in a hundred different directions, often the wrong directions.  But, today, through several people and the words of a song, I realize that, despite my confusion and doubt, God loves and cherishes me.  He rains His mercy and grace and love down on me, and nothing can change that.
As I sat sipping my coffee and reading at Promises this morning, a friend texted the first five verses of Psalm 103, along with a note of encouragement.  "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name!  Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." (Psalm 103:1-5, ESV, emphasis mine)
Shortly after returning home, I opened my devotional, and this passage caught my eye:  "...remember who you are--not a special being made up in heaven, but a sinner saved by grace."  (O. Chambers, My Utmost For His Highest)
This evening, we practiced a "new" song (for our church, anyway) for our next set.  I know the song, and it is one of my favorites.  While I could put the whole song here, I'll just include a couple of lines that struck a chord with me tonight (no pun intended):  "In the chaos, in confusion, I know You're sovereign still.  In the moment of my weakness, You give me grace to do Your will."  (None But Jesus--Hillsong United)

Thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness in the midst of my confusion.  Thank you that forgive, heal, redeem, and satisfy this weary soul.  Help me, Lord, to remember Your steadfast love for me, even when I don't feel it, or feel worthy of it.  Lead me in Your everlasting grace, break down this stubborn heart so that I may walk freely in Your grace.